My Love Affair with Film

bmovie_queen @ 2006-10-19T00:14:00

2006-10-19T04:17:20Z

Its always my fault, I'm always a mess, I'm always out of place, I'm always a joke, I feel isolated here more then ever...and no one cares, I've lost myself.

Discarded

2006-10-19T04:10:36Z

I feel discarded
I hate it here

Freaks and Geeks

2006-10-14T19:37:43Z

Somehow I have managed to fall into a crazy, sick, demented and mentally ill group of friends. Needless to say they suit me well :)

If they arn't freaky then the make it up in geeky

There's Mike, who I oft. call the FBI (Fuckin' Big Indian) he's also called Chief Sand Nigger...nice huh
He's a Starwars and Superman Geek

There's Brandon aka. MacGyver...who drives the Rusty Nubs ....need I say more
I'm not really a geek...he's moe of a freak...like rainman...he knows things 0_o

Carol aka. Tim Bit aka. Whore
Freak...just for hanging out with us

Pierce aka. Face Pussy aka. Hot American Friend
Bit geeky, bit freaky...quite hot...things even out

Those are the ones I have hung out with, bit I've met Dave aka. Christianities (The Emaculate Contraption) and Jordan aka Scappa

We've gone out and sang kareoke, been to the movies, out for dinner, driving....and everytime Mike has said something loud and innappropreate to make me go red in the face and give him a dirty look
Exapmle: During the trailers and previews one night a movie theatre Mike yells (while the theatre is in complete silence) " Oh yeah,Kate Winslet, I'd fuck her in the ass!"

Charming!

he he he I love these guys!

It's gonna be Mike's B-Day soon...I've gonna have to get him something amaing since hes been such a pal to me
I'll probably get him a big-ass dildo...he'd like that

I think we're all going out tonight to Karoke....but I'm as sick as a dog today...I can't stop coughing and hacking ...and do I look like shit....yeashhh

Oh...know whats really crappy...I gotta let some poor sod down today and tell him I am not interested in persuing a relationship with him
I gotta pull the friend card, and it makes me feel awful. I have no clue how he's going to react.
Only one way to find out

I hope luck is on my side...if not I'm fucked

I'm the type of person who doesn't live by the sword...and will probably get killed by one who does...

Desolate

2006-09-20T03:15:14Z

I'm having a hard time adjusting to College life, and the people, and not knowing anyone. I'm used to being the center of attention, surrounded by all my friends. I haven't really made any since I've been here. And I kinda got played twice...yeah I'm having a hard time. I thought I would have made a shit load of friends by now. Its kinda clicky here...and I fucking hate that. I'm a not click type of person. I'm purdy easy going and just enjoy people...here everyone is either introverted or already has a group they hang with. I fucking hate it. But I won't tell anyone back home, cause I think it would bother them to know...

Tired, going to bed. Feelings no longer coming out...eyes closing.

Blown away

2006-09-20T03:04:56Z

I just watched a doc. called Loose Change, about 911 and the conspiracy behind it. It blew me away. I think it just made me rethink a lot of things...definatly makes me second guess all I taken in...and what I think I know, and what I don't notice. Its very logic. I reccomend it...there are two parts if you go on www.youtube.com or www.myspace.com to watch it. Google also has it, but bad quality.

The guy who wrote and put this doc. togther was only 18 at the time. Blows me a-freakin'way!

Sex Poll, catch your attention?

2006-09-18T03:33:59Z

View Poll: Bed Fun